My illusions of winter break keep coming back to me. Today I started reading a textbook (not online, like a paper version…!) and I really had an urge to just read a book. I’m tired of looking at my small Lenovo screen. I tried looking around for a good one, but after five minutes..I realized I had a lot of other things I needed to do that I had momentarily forgotten. This happened again within 10 minutes, where I thought going to APhA conference would be a good idea, and not that expensive. Too many dreams, too little time (and money). I’ll just have to save them for later. I shouldn’t even be writing this post about procrastinating, I should be checking things off my never ending to do list.
I think I should reflect more about last semester, and how much energy everyone had to go out and help people. The reason I am here is to learn for the patient. I remember someone say they felt energized after hanging around with 1st years who had so many ideas and fresh minds. I can already feel this semester weighing down on me, the mundane studying, class from 8-12, IPPEs, work, all these regular schedules, and I don’t blame any of the 2nd years for feeling burnt out after the first year. I need to remember this is not a burden, but opportunities that I must take advantage of in two short years.
New years resolution: survive on less sleep